My big fear is that through this, gnostic, self-isolation I will loose the freinds I love so much.
As my attitude changes.
Fear that they will find me boring, ‘unattractive’ when I see them next….or that they will simply forget me.
Fear of becoming my mother…..in that she stands alone telling the rest of the world they are mad.
Fear of loosing the strength to keep moving on….in order to maintain my unique learned stability.